Tuesday, November 14, 2017

No photos allowed

"Museo de Arcives" in Ravenna:  

No photos allowed,
 SO I am touching everything possible!

·         Calendario 532-632 A.D.

·         “Ambo” early Christian reading desk, 596-597 (pulpit)

·         Altar, Foglia de oro

·         “Por Favore Non Toccare Il Vetro”: Mosaics behind glass

·         “The Invention of the Cross” by Luca Longhi, 1509-1580          Edge of actual canvas of unframed painting in unguarded Sala della Pinacoteca:



Saturday, October 28, 2017

Dreaming in Italian


I've just returned from ten days in Italy.  My body clock is slowly adjusting to US East Coast time, but the images that accompany me to sleep and upon waking are all from Italy! And my internal dialogue is a mix of (on the one hand--cousin Andrea) almost perfect yet charmingly accented English along with key Italian words, and (on the other hand--me) elementary and grammatically incorrect Italian mixed with Spanish, French, and English cognates (me).



The mosaics and landscapes, in particular, are forming the backdrop of dreams and the territories of falling asleep and awakening.




Sunday, October 15, 2017

Work in Progress



Work in progress has a name for its eventually existence: It is/will be called "Songs for Orphaned Mothers."

Work in progress has a guiding vision: the life of my--mostly unknown, unappreciated, and possibly unfulfilled--grandmother, Antonina Bologna Alessi. 

Work in progress even has philosophical statement: "the life of painting and making is a matter of double knowledge so that your own hands will reveal a world to you to which your mind's eye, your conscious eye, is often blind."  p. 313, How to Be Both by Ali Smith.

Work in progress has a defined moment of conception: I witnessed a woman who has the body, head, and face that I recall of my grandmother, EXCEPT that in this version, she is a LEADER, an articulate, empowered, out-front woman of presence and realized potential.  In that moment, I was inspired to excavate the earlier version of Antonina.

Work in progress is a matter of words as well as shapes, colors, textures, juxtapositions, accidents, and incidents in combinations yet to be fully determined.


Work in Progress Work in Progress Work in Progress

Friday, October 13, 2017

Thank You

I just want to say "Thank you!!" to everyone who helped and everyone who encouraged me for my exhibit at Java Madness.  Thank you!  Thank you!  It was so much fun to talk to visitors about Fiber Fables, Crops, Persnickety Packs, Swiftly Tilting Planet, Mother Has a Wild Heart, Longevity, Life in Pieces etc. etc.

Thank you especially to Mark LaHoud and the team at Java Madness.  I have been glad to introduce a few new people to your welcoming space, food, views, and personnel.  And I look forward to seeing the next exhibit and the next and the next . . . .

The last day to see my exhibit is October 21st.  That date also marks the 10th anniversary celebration of Java Madness! 

Now, it's onward to find another venue to exhibit my work !  If you have any suggestions, please let me know!


Saturday, September 23, 2017

JAVA MADNESS

Java Madness is the name of a coffee shop on Salt Pond Road in Wakefield, Rhode Island.  It's owner, Mark LaHoud, invites artists to show their work on the rough wood walls of the shop.  Yesterday, Vinnie and I, masterfully aided by a very generous new friend, Melissa Cummins, hung my exhibit.  Here are photos of my work on display at Java Madness.





Monday, September 11, 2017

Doors of Perception

"We tell ourselves stories in order to live"
 ………….Joan Didion

(This poem-story illuminates the tapestry pictured below it.)

“I need to get out of here, now!”
G whispered.

“Where do you want to go?”
A whispered back.

“Just out of the smoke, heat, anguish, and intensity of this place!”

“Go if you want! I’ll be here when you get back.”

Psyche screamed, “IF!” as G pushed her way through and through and out.

Breath and periphery opened instantly.

Near was bright, shiny, and fresh,
but further beckoned beyond with even more.

G sucked it in and powered momentum with the results.

Momentarily, a squirrel locked and unlocked eyes with G, opening another door.

An arbitrary raft on an anonymous river flourished with impulse and agility that G took to heart;
to heart, mind, amygdala, and sinew. 

For G, the poem of tomorrow opened
with a long vowel and forever.


Quotations integral to the tapestry: “ceaselessly musing venturing throwing seeking” 
from “A Noiseless Patient Spider” by Walt Whitman.

https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/45473/a-noiseless-patient-spider

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

See Say Look Touch Soar






















See Say Look Touch Soar
Flame Snow Moon
Wander Connect
Grow Fly Bloom
Dream Hope Love
Harmony Heart
Seek Find
Delight Wings
Imagine
Create
Light Laugh Sky

Monday, September 4, 2017

Response to Menand on poetry

“O body swayed to music, O brightening glance,
How can we know the dancer from the dance?”
William Butler Yeats


First, it is necessary to acknowledge that Louis Menand was on assignment when he wrote “The Defense of Poetry: Can a poem change your life?”  It is a responsible review of three books about poetry, that is, about poetry and other things, but still, under this title, I expected more, a lot more.
Menand says he “doesn’t completely agree” with Michael Robbins who writes, “No one has ever changed his life because of a poem or song . . . (we need poetry and music) . . . because they provide the illusion that we are changing, or have changed, or will change, or even want to change our lives.”
Menand critiques Robbins’ view of the fading impact of once beloved poetry and music. He acknowledges that none of us can be the fifteen-year-old first reading Tennyson’s “Ulysses”: “To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield,” or the “shining from shook foil” that Hopkins shared. But we can, according to Menand, “remember with respect and longing that time of life . . .when, as Georg Lukacs once put it, “the fire that burns in the soul is of the same essential nature as the stars.”  That fire never grows old!
The necessity to review pop music criticism along with poetry was unfortunate.  Perhaps we are a generation (we boomers) who grew up with both, but we are a particular slice and not everyone in our generation experienced one with the same intensity as the other.
About a quarter of the way through the review, Menand takes up the title of Robbins’ book, “Equipment for Life.” Robbins makes contradictory statements about the efficacy of poetry for life. Menand quotes the “can” and the “can’t,” referring (as though every reader is equally familiar) to Auden’s line “poetry makes nothing happen.” In February, 1939, Auden had the courage to say that poetry “survives, a way of happening, a mouth.”  Robbins instead takes capitalism, not Hitler, as a target, according to Menand, but holds that “when capitalism is dead . . . we might not need poetry anymore.” Menand gently steps away in disdain, and then details how poetry was alive and well around the wars of the 20th century and is alive and well even now: “Every crisis is an opportunity for poetry.” 
On his way out of Robbins’ world and on the way to Matthew Zapruder’s question, “Why Poetry?” Menand stops briefly at Ben Lerner’s publication, “The Hatred of Poetry.”   With this pivot point I’m beginning to think the title of this review should be something like, “Why Poets Hate Poetry.” And I’m beginning to see that Menand took on a quite impossible task in reviewing these books, or this topic! He sums up Lerner’s argument as “Poetry is a paradigm example of human inadequacy.”  Rather than take on what he seems to believe are fundamental errors in reasoning, Menand mostly just moves on.  How might he have given a compelling argument to Lerner at this point?  Perhaps, at the very least, turn to the adequacy of Archibald MacLeish: “A poem should be wordless as the flight of birds . . . a poem should not mean, but be”?  I was looking for Menand to give a good joust, and found thus far, a slightly sardonic reportage.
Menand lastly turns to Zapruder with at least a third of the review to come.  He also shifts tone at this juncture, and begins to respond in a more feisty spirit to all three of the authors under review. Their fundamental position according to Menand, is based on the distinction between nonfiction and fiction, and which of these is more meaningful, practical, and effective. All three find poetry lacking. Menand does take a firm glove to the three, and directly, too, with examples from Basho to Brodsky to Trump and September 11th.
On first reading this long, involved review essay, I was disappointed that Menand didn’t do more to not just list evidence, but to be the evidence to the contrary. On this more careful and analytic reading, I see that he marshalls history, titles, names, and arguments in addition to sarcasm and overall contrariness.  Possibly, the authors might even say that he does NOT even fairly represent their books.
Menand concludes his essay with some very personal remarks (that might even have been placed first). He, and the three authors (and I as well) found poetry in youth, “and it changed their lives.”  My experience was mediated by animated teachers and by the guidance of Laurence Perrine’s Sound and Sense: An Introduction to Poetry.  My expectations of Menand are shaped by Perrine, too.  “Poetry . . . is a kind of . . . multi-dimensional language . . . a gear for stepping up the intensity and increasing the range of our experience, and as a glass for clarifying it.”
Robert Pinsky is another interlocutor whose voice on poetry might have added to Menand’s range and decisiveness.  Nowhere in this essay do we feel the force of poetry as “a vocal, which is to say, a bodily art.” For Pinsky, poetry contains “intricate patterns of sound, in great measure intuitively heard and intuitively perceived . . . its unique expressive structure. . .”
In my world, poetry starts young and sinks deep.  It operates at the level of cellular motion, mitochondria, synapses, amygdala.  Learning poetry by heart is a deep pleasure and also an efficacious defense against pain. Just try it at the dentist’s office: words written hundreds or dozens of years ago are anodyne better than novocaine.  Poetry IS “shining from shook foil” in exactly the way that Hopkins meant, and “trepidation of the spheres” as Donne reveals.  It is the “frigate” (ED) and the eagle that “clasps the crag” (ALT) and it makes visceral “the old lie” (WO).  And if “life is more true than reason will deceive . . . beauty is more each than living’s all.” (EEC)  (Full poem by ee cummings below)


life is more true than reason will deceive
(more secret or than madness did reveal)
deeper is life than lose: higher than have
–but beauty is more each than living’s all

multiplied with infinity sans if
the mightiest meditations of mankind
canceled are by one merely opening leaf
(beyond whose nearness there is no beyond)

or does some littler bird than eyes can learn
look up to silence and completely sing?
futures are obsolete: pasts are unborn
(here less than nothing’s more than everything)

death, as men call him, ends what they call men
-but beauty is more now than dying’s when

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

Arachnid I


When I opened
the sun umbrella for
breakfast shade,
the striped spider’s perfect
web ripped in half
and collapsed.

In remorse for the offhand
gesture that destroyed her art,
I gave the spider
a loose strand
of my long hair,
the exact silver color
of her skill.

And watched
—while eating watermelon
laced with chocolate—
the spider suspended on a thread
doing science with my own
slender spun
filament.

Two worlds
suspended and
interacting—
which is which?

After coffee and fiction,
the striped spider is gone,
where?
but there is
a new slender thread
now attached to my chair,
and I am
assimilated into the web.

Monday, August 7, 2017

Quiet in the House

Today it IS quiet in the house!  The past few weeks have NOT been quiet, however, as three rooms in our condo were improved with built-in bookcases.  Now we are retrieving our books from storage and placing them in just the right order in just the right room.  Living with books is a great pleasure we have missed for these few months.

The past two weeks were also enriched with family and friend visits, bringing much joy and activity. The first day after such wonderful visits is usually quiet to the point of deafening silence, but fortunately, we spent that day at the Newport Jazz Festival immersed in quite another level of joyful noise!

One of the activities of family "beach week" was the creation of short videos to be shared in a "film festival" on the last night.  Four teams worked most of the week on their scripts and props, filming and editing for hours at a time.  I wasn't going to participate until VC sent me a poem that inspired me to create a simple video of my own.

I read the poem by Wallace Stevens while my actors, VC and DP, performed the activity of reading.  Apparently the video is too large to post here, so I'll just include a few lines:

     The house was quiet and the world was calm.
     The reader became the book; and summer night
     Was like the conscious being of the book.
     The house was quiet and the world was calm.

Needless to say, we came in 4th (i.e. last) place. The winning videos included a lot of action and music and wit and charm.  Serenity, apparently, comes in last during beach vacations!  Still, we were warmly applauded and I was quite happy with the outcome.

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

Quotations

This quotation captured me yesterday: 

 "by 'poet' I mean the broadest sense of a creative maker of meaningful space."  
 (in Radical Hope by Jonathan Lear)

Here are a few others that are engraved in my heart:


"we live in a world of suffering in which evil is rampant, a world whose events do not confirm our Being, a world that has to be resisted. It is in this situation that the aesthetic moment offers hope . . . For an instant, the energy of one's perception becomes inseparable from the energy of creation. . . . All the languages of art have been developed as an attempt to transform the instantaneous into the permanent. Art supposes that beauty is not an exception--is not in despite of--but is the basis for an order. . . . . the transcendental face of art is always a form of prayer."  
(John Berger)


Don't ask yourself what the world needs.
Ask yourself what makes you come alive and then go do that.
Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.
(Howard Thurman)


Friday, July 7, 2017

Art Exstallation Manifesto

If art is cash,
credit, investment, and status,
I am dross.

Value is a flexible cup
that runneth over.

Beauty is a warm soldier
with nonetheless weapons
of brilliant harm.

If art is making and
giving, I am full,
and the glad opposite
of finite.

Color is a form of
consciousness, of spirit
holding faith in fountains.

Shadow is the substance
of waiting for euphoria.

If art is holding and collecting,
I am a loose thread meandering,
a loose cannon rolling
significant light shows
against the pregnant dark.

Line is a singular map
condensed and waiting
for a vision to release its direction, thrust,
and purpose.

Contrast is a multiplier
of sensation, a confluence
of rivers, and an omelet
both savory and sweet.

If art is a tiny gift
that magnifies a glance
into an embrace, and
a stitch into time itself,
I am wealth personified.

Abstractions are deep
reflections in the
skewed mirror of
the sky’s eyeballs.
  
If art is bold
along the seams of loss,
making a forever
juxtaposition of empathy
and grief, I am
the process of mourning that
beholds joy
and treasures delight.

Texture is the way fingers see
grains of sand
and the print of stars
on the bedclothes. Texture
is the nutritional supplement
on top of the nurturing meal.

If art is the measure of
 kindness is courage,
I am love.

The elements of art are
here, there, and
everywhere: the glare on
the pill bottle by nightlight,
the crumple of black leather gloves,
the myriad shapes of calligraphy,
the feather of down and the
feather of dawn.

Forbidden is but one of the ways
art is hidden and lost in this world.


If art is marketing, product placement,
and public relations, I am
an intriguing whisper
in an empty room.

Friday, June 30, 2017

Semiosis of Winter Beach, Days 15-20

Day 15
You put a lot of energy into
lifting me today:
a skipping stone, a scimitar,
bountiful eggs,
(even eggs the color of yolks).
And cups full of offerings
and leaves to show that
my dad was here,
and boats harvesting mystery.

Still, I am stone.
The only message that comes
through is the
reflection of reflection—
be gentle and rise
like tiny sandpipers,
flashing and bold.
Do not be soft sand imprinted by heavy feet;
Lift and be the bold.


Day 16
So quiet today
I can see your
rock bottom, pebbled
soul.


Day 17
Myriad
Incessant
Motion:
I found.
I found myself.
I found myself
Laughing.


Day 18
Intimate ocean
You lift the horizon
Both fore and aft.
I walk in the crease between
Two shores.

What feet are these?
I leave no marks behind.
Perhaps I am NOT here,
Just wishful
Or blind.

I am not blind
To profligate keys and tracks
And signs;
Blind just to my own.

Today is not for white feathers
And wishes,
But for the rubbish
Of others.

My own treasure
Skims and alights
There and there,
But not here.

Day 19
Emily says
Tell it slant.
You are inclined in
That direction today.
Coy, as if quiet.

Here and there
A sign of what you
Must mean
Down below: tangled hair
Or rope, or themes
Of love and loss.

Soft silent sideways,
No ebb and flow.
No evidence of your intention,
Just passing by,
Flat, hidden,
And, yet, inviting.

Day 20
I thought that
If I came every day, or
Nearly every day,
In the coldest season,
We would finally be alone
Together again, like that
Time I sat in the sailboat’s prow
On 360 degrees and
Recognized my birth and
Heritage at sea.

I thought I would find
A secret, a treasure,
a horse skull perhaps,
Or a stone so unique it
Would change galactic
Geologic time
and me.

But no.
I witnessed your moods
To be sure, sweet ones,
And angry, rugged. I saw you cover up
And I saw you reveal.
But surprise of surprises,
I was the one who did
Not change from day to day.
Still a miracle, still pulsing,
Still holding some in and letting
Some out. Still edging right
Up to the edge, and sometimes,
quite a bit
Beyond.

Today is the first day of Spring
Farewell!

Hello!

Sunday, June 25, 2017

Mother Has a Wild Heart

I started out to make an apron. This project started with scraps. I can't let go of small triangles, rectangles, strips, squares, pentagons, and all other polygons that fall away when scissors or rotary blades cut intentions from fabric.  These "scraps" are unintentional bits of intrigue, provoking my imagination with their potential for quirky combinations.

The front of the apron is a domesticated patchwork of these scraps, organized in regions of colorful contrasts.  Some blocks of color are remnants from other projects, just like the olden days when no waste was allowed in any room of the house.

When it came time to select the reverse side of the apron, I rummaged through my stash and the "sticky" piece of fabric that emerged was images of wild animals.  Of course!  The woman wearing this apron is domesticated and frugal on one side, but underneath, in hidden places, in her heart, she is wild!  She is the wolf, the bear, the dolphin, and the owl.

Here are a few preliminary images of "Mother Has a Wild Heart."  She begs to be photographed out of doors, and when my own eagle heart/lion heart is in ascendancy, I will take her out and let her spirit dance in the world of elephant-legged trees and ocean-wild stones.

P.S.  While writing and posting this, I imagined another apron, this time, "Mother Has a Wild Tongue"!  Stay tuned!


Wednesday, June 21, 2017

What Will Save Us Today?

What will save us today?
Art will save us.
Flowing water will save us.
The shapes and colors of leaves will save us if we do not rush to rake
and blow
and burn to oblivion
or compost.

The feel of smooth wood in the hand 
along with the story of the wood’s ancestry,
along with the story of your ancestry and mine.

The portrait of the shapes of apples and oranges
by firelight might save us.
And one plum, or is it a fig?

Giving might save us.
Listening might.
Poetry and the impulse to poetry could save us if we let it.

That whisper of doubt and this toxic shout will most likely not save us,
but some will try,
nonetheless.

What will save us today?
Pandora and her
magic box—danger be damned.

Nina Simone, from afar,
might save me.

Chocolate?
Spice?
Flavor buds may not spark enough desire to
save me today, tired of taste, too.
That one tiny bird out there on a brittle
and frigid limb might have just
the lift I need. I’ll go out and try.

Hiding helps;
behind the sofa
is cozy and warm.

Friday, June 16, 2017

Semiosis of Winter Beach, Days 9-14

Day 9
Today you are I and I am you.
Shadows skimming a calm blue surface.
Quiet turbulence to put an edge on
and give momentum to thought.
Swells pushing and lifting toward the goal.

And in the sunlit distance, two towers
To suggest the majesty of creation
Amidst the fullness
Of teeming mystery.


Day 10
When you speak, I listen.
When you whisper, I hover
Over quiescent pools
Consonants yielding consonance,
Hmmmm, ymmm, lmmmn, whmmm,
Holding vowels at bay.
Contrast that is consonance in
Disguise.


Day 11
Gentle green lady, susushushing up to shore with only a dark shoulder to show that yesterday’s rage still carries weight.
And at this corner, with your choice of smaller stones laid out in a curve, the retreat sings a song that no human instrument can imitate: specific and infinite, pebble to pebble, smacking rough to smooth.

Day 12
There are waves and there are waves of waves.
The wind is the wave of waves.


Day 13
Are you distracted by today’s chill companion of air?
You pitch and toss tiny bullets in random scatter:
I cannot read the scribble.
I can read only two gifts: a perfect shell with
Palm turned upward, receiving and giving,
at once and the same.
And a white feather, upright against the odds.

Your curves are tight;
Energy quiet.

Every map you offer is
Crosshatched with indecision
And/or regret.

When the moon comes tonight,
Shadowed with my shadow,
Will you hide or tremble? Will
You beg for comfort in arms,
Or blush in awe?

I take away acceptance of the fading
Light and faith in the beneficent

Unknown.

Day 14
Waiting, calming, biding.

Steel gray over
Steelier gray

Receiving, accepting
Elemental nothing,
Elemental all.

Monday, June 12, 2017

"Limber Leon" : Lost and Found

Years ago I heard a concert performance by the American Symphony Orchestra with Leon Botstein conducting.  I was as impressed by Botstein's style as by the music.  I wrote this poem shortly thereafter, and then lost it.  As a result of our recent move and efforts to sift through journals, notebooks, folders, and files, "Limber Leon" was found.

Limber Leon

Leon listens low.
In a room of squared shoulders,
His swoop diagonal
Like a child playing kami-kaze
Scooping up ideas.
Leon listens low.

Leon pushes sound.
E.T. fingers shape and launch
Pregnant open cages of geometry and fruit,
Signing intelligibly to other
Ambidextrous sensitives.
Leon pushes sound.

Leon muscles mind.
A seeming supple spastic
Ignoring vertebrae,
Whose lips and ears dip deeply
In shadow symmetry,
Blinking brows and mouth
And owl eyes
To shuster off the dark;

Leon muscles mind.

Thursday, June 8, 2017

Manuscript submission

Yesterday, I clicked the submit button to send my manuscript for review.  Enough thinking about it for ages and ages.  Serendipity struck about a year ago when B gave me a book called The Best Travel Writing Volume 11 published by Travelers' Tales, an imprint of Solas House in Palo Alto, CA.

I checked their website and decided to submit.  It took me a year to stop fiddling with a word here and a word there. And to forget the comments from an agent, "I can't sell this."

Anyway, it's off and perhaps that bit of momentum will result in further submissions of work that has been waiting and waiting.

Here is one of the short reflections from my manuscript, One Foot on the Ground: Wandering, Collecting, Arriving, Savoring, Waiting, Transforming, Returning

Off Itinerary: Saying “Yes”

Destination no longer ruled.  My only map was that of free association:  I would follow each street only as long as it interested me and then, on a whim, choose a new direction.
Alice Steinbach
  
I said “Yes” to an early morning walk around Xuanwu Lake Park with Christopher and Kate.  We met at 6 am and Christopher asked me if I was hungry.  What’s the right answer to this?  I sensed it was “Yes” and I was right.  They wanted to take me for street food breakfast.  We walked toward the university until we came upon a woman who was setting up her cart.  She was pulling small snowball sized lumps of dough off a large bucket full of dough in the lower part of her cart.  She set out various containers of filings and checked the fire under her wide flat pan.  We watched for a minute or two and then Kate spoke to her.  Nodding seemed to indicate that she was ready to begin. She spread the dough over the pan and then cracked an egg over the dough. With a broad spatula she spread the egg over the dough.  As these set and became a crepe of sorts, she spread the vegetables Kate indicated over the egg.  Finally, she folded this tortilla into a roll and placed it in a thin plastic bag for holding.  By the time she had made one each for the three of us, a second and third cart had arrived on the scene and quickly set up for business. Each was a slightly different variety of the same thing.  I could imagine that a worker or student might have a favorite cart for breakfast every day—one and only favorite out of these three and the dozens more we saw as we rode in a taxi to the lake.  The top few bites were crepe only, but below that it was a crunchy, soft, wrap around oily veggies for a very satisfying finger-licking good breakfast if you can let go of dry toast as a standard.  2 RMB each, about 30 cents.
The taxi dropped us off at one entrance gate to the lake park.  A group of adults were doing tai chi with red flags just outside the arched opening in the old city wall.  We entered and made a plan to walk the forest route and then the island route. There are broad wooden walkways through the forest and people are doing morning exercise routines alone and together.  They move to the same principles, if not the same rhythm/drummer, in harmony and community, yet each may be doing something individual.  A man plays his trumpet to a tree.  A woman stretches at a bench, couples walk briskly, small groups move through different forms of tai chi or chi gong.  A man uses tree branches to do pull ups over a small water feature.  It is 6:20 am.  Someone plays a flute; someone else is doing primal screams, and a sole woman is singing opera to the lake.  She has a beautiful voice, and I think the beauty of the lake owes something to the vibrations she infuses.
The care and artistry of setting is stunning here and almost everywhere else we went.  There is not just simply a row of bushes along the highway—there is usually an array with depth and texture.  Lower plantings in front, with medium thick hedges framing shaped trees or contrasting hedges of medium height and then one or two rows of trees standing taller behind.  This would be along the highway.  This level of quality in a park would be arrayed in groupings rather than along a road.  The difference in the park is the inclusion of height and stone.  Beautiful “scholar rocks” are cultivated near Lake Xuanwu  by putting “seed” stones into cracks in the rock and then allowing the agitating action of the water to shape a variety of openings in the rock. The result is a three-dimensional stone lace. Nature and artistry, one and the same.

China, 2012

Monday, June 5, 2017

Semiosis of Winter Beach Day 6-8


Day 6
Some people (who?) build towers,
Some (who?) build castles, and
Some (who?) build bridges.

Children build castles of sand
With shovels and buckets and
Quick trips to water with
Joy to compose and delight
To destroy. Ebbing and flowing
In diurnal play.

Some (who?) build towers,
Finding sturdy stone platforms,
And hooks to set on
Rounded necks reaching up and up,
To peak or to balance.

Some (who?) desire bridges most,
And they see at once the space
Of air between, and the
Question once asked and never
Answered. They span the
Question and the demand
Of gravity with imagination first,
Grace second, and then, at last,
Stone.

Castles beg destruction;
Towers demand attention;
Bridges soar with purpose.


Day 7
Bright blue sky, bright winter coats, brisk walkers, many gifts.

Today I found a stone topographical map the size of a quarter.
It marks the winding path to the center of the earth. 
It can be read with eyes, when the light is soft and diffuse, or with fingers when the light may be too bright or too dim. 
Fingers find the way. 
Fingers note the winding path, the many levels of careful ledges winding around and toward 
the off-center island where row upon row of amphitheater shelves gaze upon the wonder. 
Follow or don’t follow, but hold the map dear for future folly or fortune.

In addition to the topographical map, a key came to me today. 
I have the map and I have the key. 
The key wears disguises: a tooth from a large mammal, a hand-held gun 
for a mouse-sized appendage, or simply 
the key to a chest or door opening to enchantment or terror. 
I will choose enchantment today. 
It is the key to the fluctuating room above--but not far above--our heads, 
of the small birds who delight in flinging themselves in the winds, 
but need a resting place now and then.

Day 8
Today’s ocean is green.
With a sound like a
Sweet fog horn, not
Quite a whistle.

Looking for signs,
Markers, maps,
All I see are dog prints
Lapping every which way,
over and under one another.

But a few stone signals
Lift from tide-flattened
Sand to signal me.

Here’s an ominous skull,
That’s not for me.
Here are the eggs
I was seeking a few days ago.
And here is a dark stone
With two white ribbons, circling.
One is a crown,
And the other a noose.

That’s my message
For today as I
Suppress the bile in
My throat, the anger, the tears:
The crown and the noose are
One and the same.

Green whistling ocean, what
Question do you have for me:
What does the sky look like

Before a rainbow?

Thursday, June 1, 2017

Art Ex-stallation #1

I have begun an art project that is an “ex-stallation” (contrast with installation).
      (If mispronounced as “exhalation,” that’s fine, too!) 

It is distributed destination artwork: art set free into the world to engage with humans. 

Any given piece is a visual experience and a textile/tactile experience.

It might be a cover over or it might be a landing pad or an accent piece under

It might hold on, or it might let go.

It might be a reminder, an encouragement, or an inspiration.

It is always food for thought.

Here are a few images of people who are now engaged with components of the art ex-stallation:




Tuesday, May 30, 2017

Remember Kim

     I couldn't remember her last name this morning, but thanks to the internet and to Blogger, I found Kimberly Davis again.  Her voice, her kindness, her creative spirit are all alive and well on the internet, these few years after she died unexpectedly, and far too young, in the midst of a remarkable life. For a sense of her spirit, see this post on "Ordinary Superpower" on her blog:  http://kimatsyao.blogspot.com/2010/07/
     Kim was one of my inspirations in fiber arts.  She was a teacher, a leader, an entrepreneur, a guiding light.  She was co-founder and co-owner (with Cynthia Spencer) of a shop called Stitch Your Art Out in the tiny town of Pine Grove Mills, PA.  Women were drawn to her and the shop for fabric and sorority. Kim led us in many "Block of the Month" adventures and other "Creativity" expeditions.
     I signed up for one advanced class, and at the first session I felt that I was too much of a novice to participate with so many expert quilters.  Kim calmed me and assured me that we would achieve this together, one step at a time, and we did.
     Still, there are many fabrics in my collection that remind me of the project with Kim that occasioned their purchase.  She was fearless in her own art and in guiding the rest of us to create from our own visions.
     After she was suddenly gone from our lives, I realized that she was still with me in so many ways. A poem by e.e. cummings seemed to express this, so I stitched it into a creative project.  Here is the poem and here is the piece I call "Remember Kim."


in time of daffodils(who know
the goal of living is to grow)
forgetting why,remember how

in time of lilacs who proclaim
the aim of waking is to dream,
remember so(forgetting seem)

in time of roses(who amaze
our now and here with paradise)
forgetting if,remember yes

in time of all sweet things beyond
whatever mind may comprehend,
remember seek(forgetting find)

and in a mystery to be
(when time from time shall set us free)
forgetting me,remember me 




Friday, May 26, 2017

Semiosis of Winter Beach (Day 1-5)

Semiosis of Winter Beach:
Twenty Days in Ocean State of Mind
(excerpt)

Day 1
Flat grey/green stone about twice the size of my thumb pad.
Ordinary wear and tear on the “back,” but
Deep striations in geometric/hieroglyphic pattern
On the “front.”

Not a Rosetta Stone, no.
Treasure map? Possibly.
“Message in a bottle”? Hmmn.
Story of long imprisonment
and escape? Maybe.

Palm-like lifelines, divergences, canyons:
strong inclination toward one direction, but
explorations into new territories as well.

And here is the storyline of a fresh
Spring rising in a desert
And finding its way to
The sea of open air.

And deep indentations where this vessel
Of meaning was once held
Tight by a creature
With opposing thumb and palm,
Or huge dull teeth.
Metaphorically, of course.

All in all, it is a language of stress
And mute fracture,
Of time-traveling through
Dimensions of place
And emotion,
Feigning stillness,
Holding shape,
Beckoning sensation,
Fingerprint to fingerprint.


Day 2
I was scouting winter beach for the perfect white egg today. I saw it uncovered by the tide on Day 1. In my fancy, the oval bird bodies mounted on one leg with narrow end toward the wind were hatched one by one from this perfect white egg.
But it’s gone. Or hidden from me today. Anyway, it’s not a bird’s egg I seek, is it? It’s the egg of my own euphoria, of my purpose. Seeking that egg here on winter beach, but also, most defiantly, in cityscapes, and rarely, among the cumulous, cirrus, stratus clouds and, oh, yes! the stars!

Here on winter beach today are small, speckled, dimpled stones (eggs) with imperfect bodies circling and potent or potential. Flat on one side for broadcast news, like “wish!” or “awesome!” or “come to me!”

Here are large, palm-flattened, smooth, dark, slate stones. Egg-shaped, but somehow not eggs. These are weapons. Skull-stones, war-stones, hate-stones. Or in the hands of some, stones to make grain into flour into bread into community, into love.

One stone gave birth to me and is still calling me. Perhaps it is not smooth and shaped like the egg I am seeking? Am I the rough-edged chunk, broken from a daring edifice? Or the pearly chip of shell of short local life? No matter whatever. I am one with winter beach, the tides, winds, waves, and sand.


Day 3
There are ripples, waves, surges, waves of waves, and flights of birds.


Day 4
The most amazing sight:
At the back edge of the curling wave
Visible rising maze of mist.
And in the droplets,
A miraculous rainbow dashing
Along the edge of the tumult
Rolling colors out along the verge in
Littoral delight.


Day 5
Today winter beach is
About the fold,
The crease in the deep angle where sea
Meets sand.
Both surfaces tilt up from the fold.
I am on the solid facing toward
The mysterious slant of
Water into atmosphere,
Wondering what holds it
Up and holds me down,
With eyes that follow the
Sharp horizon up
And over senses;
and far into imagination.

Almost One Year

I see that I haven't posted on my blog in almost a year! Where did that time go? My role as "Asset Manager" kicked in big time over the past 18 months! Every phone call, document, negotiation, search, application, and detail of all the transitions below was processed through my mind and creative energy. Roles as "Artist" and "Author" were secondary during most of this time.

We sold our house in State College, PA after twenty years of Happy Valley and Penn State University. Our belongings went to three locations : 31 Tanglewood Trail, CubeSmart in Wakefield, RI, and another storage unit in State College. We intended to spend the summer in RI, possibly planning to renovate the cottage and then return to a rental in PA for fall semester. Vincent would be on research leave for Jan-June, so we would be back in RI then. Retirement plans were fuzzy, not near, not far, but certainly eventual.

In July, shortly after my last blog post, our children and grandchildren arrived for "Beach Week #19." On the very first day, the kids told us that they recommend we consider moving to a condo versus doing a major renovation to upgrade Tanglewood as a permanent residence. Our daughter-in-law got on Zillow and found an open house for the very next day. Along with daughter and daughter-in-law, I went to see the condo on Gibson Avenue in Narragansett. Love at first sight! Four blocks to the ocean! Large rooms, lots of light, secluded grounds, historic buildings.

Vincent and I made an appointment with our realtor to return and see all of the condo units available, and long-story-short, we put a bid on a for-sale-by-owner condo for a good price, but needing a lot of renovation. Paperwork . . . Paperwork . . . Paperwork. And simultaneously having touch up work completed on the Tanglewood house to prepare it for sale: paint exterior, fence, etc. etc. Closing was set for September. We returned to State College to move into a shared rental with a friend, and soon I traveled back to RI for the closing and to meet with contractor for renovation planning.

Penn State threw a new angle into the mix! They offered a "Voluntary Retirement Program" with incentives for eligible faculty to retire at the end of the academic year. Vincent qualified and after consultation decided to accept the offer. So, our fall was spent with more paperwork along with traveling back and forth from State College to RI to supervise the renovation.

By the end of December, we had moved everything from State College to Tanglewood Trail, including ourselves. We knew that we would be back to PA several times in spring, summer, and fall, so it felt final, but not finished, especially with friends.

By late January we moved into the condo and began to stage the Tanglewood house for sale. Meanwhile, we are both exploring our interests in Narragansett, at URI, and in surrounding communities. I arranged for some of my smaller art pieces to be displayed for sale by joining the Fayerweather Craft Guild. Membership includes working at the shop one day a month during the months of May through December. I will also facilitate a workshop for this group in August. My first "work" day in the shop is next week. My larger art pieces will be displayed at a coffee shop, Java Madness, from late September into October.

Vincent had three (at least) academic meetings in Jan, Feb, March and I went along on all of them. We were in Brooklyn once and then in Cambridge twice. Amtrak and MBTA were very convenient for our travel. I walked A LOT on the beach this winter, loving every moment and writing almost every day. That will be my very next post.

In April we returned to State College for a week of meetings, friends, more moving, etc. I added a few days visiting family at the end of the trip. The closing on the Tanglewood house took place while we were in PA. Paperwork . . . paperwork . . . paperwork. Oh, and that reminds me, we applied for all the Social Security, Medicare, PSU health supplement, etc. etc. Paperwork . . . paperwork . . . paperwork! AND of course, I prepared all of the data for our tax return.

And that brings us to May. Almost to the end of May. I've been sewing a lot and will have photos of new work to post very soon! You'll see "Mother Has a Wild Heart" and "Frame of Mind" and "Longevity Banner" soon. I am very happy with these pieces and hope to escalate my visibility with some new gallery opportunities as well.

I've been reading some of my own writing lately and starting to make plans to complete some things and to send other things out for rejection letters. Or whatever comes back! Last summer I did send out a poetry manuscript and received a comment including the words "lush and sensuous" along with the rejection.

Writing this account is significant. It is turning the page, or closing the entire book, of "asset management" work of the past 18 months. I wake up now and walk two steps to my sewing table. I feel writing and reading times and places are abundant. New opportunities are opening and I can begin the day in my imagination mode rather than my efficiency mode. I will close with a quote from Wallace Stevens that is part of the "Frame of Mind" piece that I am finishing today:
"She sang beyond the genius of the sea."